Light Up the Sky

I am in the most uncertain time of my life so far. Up until now, I have always had something coming up next. After elementary school, junior high. Then high school. Then college. Of course there was unpredictability and adventure in those times, but I had a basic structure. Life was unpredictably predictable, in a sense. But now...after graduation? I don't know of anything that's definitely happening for the rest of my life. The only things I'm sure about are that I am going on vacation to California next week and that I will be a bridesmaid in my friend Tiffany's wedding in July. Other than that, the rest of my life is one giant question mark staring me in the face. My rough plan is to someday meet someone and fall in love for the first time, get married, go overseas, teach, have kids, etc. But what happens now...in this state of limbo? All those elements of my "rough plan" seem so very out of reach. For now, I may or may not be moving to Philadelphia. And I don't feel ready to teach yet, so I'm looking to work one-on-one with children with autism (as a TSS).

All in all, I've been feeling pretty alone and insecure about the future. Too often I forget that God truly is with me through all of this uncertainty. A couple days ago, I downloaded the song "Light Up the Sky" by The Afters onto my Ipod. I randomly found it and loved it because of the lyrics' relevance to my life. And late last night, I spontaneously decided to run some errands at 9 pm in the middle of a thunderstorm/ torrential downpour. When I was on my way home, this song came on (I didn't even select it). The lyrics really hit home once again. Then it got to the chorus: "Light, light, light up the sky to show me You are with me." As soon as those words had been sung, the entire sky lit up the brightest I think I've ever seen. The lightning made it look like daytime. I sat there in my little car, in my little town, in my little state, in my little country, on my little planet, amazed by the glory of God and the fact that He would choose to be with me. God gave me that lightning bolt to show me He was there. He gave me a lightning bolt at the particular moment in time that would have meant very little to me under ordinary circumstances. Now every time I see a lightning bolt, it will be a reminder of God's promise to me that He is always with me, even in my most uncertain times.

When I'm feeling all alone and so far to go/ The signs are nowhere on this road guiding me home/ When the night is closing in/ It's falling on my skin/ Oh God, will You come close/ Light, light, light up the sky to show me You are with me/ I, I, I can't deny, Oh, I can't deny that You are right here with me...

 "Light Up the Sky" by The Afters